pee on my sperrys (7/11)

So today was surely a day! I had an experience like no other, well it really was'nt that bad but in the moment it was HORRIBLE. So, I was working with my kids, and we're all at the library. As, we enter in I offer everyone a chance to use the bathroom and there are no takers. Just minutes as we walk through the door, and get set up using the computers, my 3 year crosses her legs, and as she squirms she says " I gotta pee pee". Of course me being prideful, and irritated I make her wait for like 2 seconds realizing if we don't go she'll pee her pants. So, as I am lecturing her about having a previous opportunity we hurry to the bathroom to make it on time. But, later comes the big kicker, the one where I get tested to the max. Again, my 3 year old has for whatever reason held it so long her eyeballs are floating, she decides to tell me again in the squirmy, holding herself manner... " I gotta pee pee". I once again rush her to the bathroom, and as I'm pulling her pants down she pees, all over herself, the floor and my FEET ( and my favorite sperry's!). In the heat of the moment I shout" Ashley stop, as I put her on the toilet to finish her business, she begins to cry in the most pitiful and innocent manner. Me still wrapped in the fact that I am a germ-o-phob, and highly irritated that this kid good and well potty trained continues to wait to the LAST possible second to attempt to make it to the bathroom, I clean up her overalls, while she still cries in embrassment and shame. I realize you know she's 3! And, all of a sudden the automatic flusher goes off and her big beautiful brown eyes light up in shock, I see a smile peeking through. Right there in that moment, in those big Ashley, sweet and love filled eyes, I see God. He say's "you asked for this, you asked for patience, you asked to be molded into the type of wife and mother I'd have you to be for Shayne, you asked for me to make you love others in a deep and intimate way". He said " calm down Suzanne!, handle this as I would." I was convicted and humbled in that brief moment. And, as I responded to her reaction of the flush, I scoop her up and say " ohh no ohh no we can't have you flush away". The tears roll away from face, the shame dims, and that smile that I swear touches her ears and my heart is back. I realize she's a baby, she made a mistake and in no way would Jesus of ever put his sperry's or his on phobia of germs before the heart of someone else. And, I know now that even though its fun to joke about with friends, I never again will either.